I’m tired off…Part 2

Kia Store Commercials…I do have a job and a hundred dollars.  But no desire to buy a KIA.

CSPAN…there are very important things going on with our Government right now, try a little production value.

Whatever Top 40 radio station my wife listens to…I’ve heard the same 5 songs every morning for the past 3 months.  And the worst part is the crap is so catchy it stays in your head all day.

The ad with the Sarah MClaughlin song making me feel guilty about not helping sick animals…that song is about overdosing on heroin in a hotel room.  One eyed dog looking sad = heroin O.D.  I don’t see the connection.

People who give me way too much information on their Facebook…I’m glad your colonostomy went well, but let’s just keep that to ourselves.

The stories major news outlets are making headlines out of now that they have nothing to talk about after the election…I’ve seen more stories about monkey waiters than I care to repeat.

The Toyota Prius…seriously, try to say “Prius” without having a lisp.

That damned “Save by Zero” Toyota ad…that jingle was written by Satan himself.

Nicole Kidman’s face…what’s going on there, did you go to the same doctor as Kenny Rogers?

Christmas music playing when I buy Halloween candy…seriously, I know we’re in tough financial times but you playing Christmas music way before Christmas does NOT make we want to buy more.  Knock it off.  I don’t need to hear Andy Williams while I see the mask from Scream sitting on the shelf.

I wish my head were in the clouds a little more

But alas strange things are afoot at the Circle K.  

We’re in the home stretch.  5 weeks and counting and I’ll be a father.  Scary, scary, scary thought.  I don’t know if I’m actually stressed and frantic or I just haven’t been able to take the time and let it really sink in.  But I’m going to a dad.  I will have total responsibility over a completely helpless being.  Maybe that’s it, when I say it like that it’s does sound quite horrifying.  That’s probably why I’m keeping things so “full”.  Making movies, recording some iteresting rap music for some folks, working 1, no 2, no 3 jobs at the same time.  I really need to get my head in the game.  

I guess it’s a little harder for the daddy-to-be to have that connection right off the bat.  The only tangible thing I see is my wife’s belly getting bigger.  She can feel him, growing, moving inside of her.  It’s a nightly thing that Beth gets really exited over the smallest movement.  She calls me over and says “Look, look!”  And honestly most times I can’t see anything.  Then I get “Well he was doing it a second ago.”  Day late and a dollar short I guess.  That moment in the delivery room is going to be incredible, I know it.  It’s just hard to really wrap your head around something so surreal yet so permanent.

Don’t get the wrong idea, I am extremely excited.  I cannot wait.  I (and I’m sure my wife would agree) want him to be here now.  Healthy, but now.  But let’s face it, the God’s honest truth is…I’m scared out of my mind.  And I think that’s normal.  I think anyone who approaches parenthood with a melancholy demeanor needs their head examined.  

So I guess that’s what I’m feeling.  A total and absolute fear and a total and absolute joy all at the same time.  It’s not everyday those two emotions cross paths.  Sorry I can’t be anymore poetic than that.  When I really think about, and let myself think about it, it’s so overwhelming.  But overwhelming or not, ready or not, here he comes.  So be it, and may he be blessed.

thanks for listening

The Runner

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Because it’s what we do.

There is nothing better then getting together with your friends and just simply creating.  Sunday my very good friend Paul Smith and I shot a new short film.  I say friend, I really should call him my “Bruce”.  He’s my Bruce Campbell to his Sam Raimi (if you don’t know that story then you’re just not cool, sorry.).  We just threw some cameras in the car and went out and just starting shooting.  We had a vague semblance of an idea.  Nothing solid at all.  But we didn’t care.  A few weeks ago we both came to the simultaneous conclusion that if we didn’t create something, and now, we were going to lose our minds.  We didn’t go out looking for profit.  Trying to be something we’re not.  We’re just some guys who love the movies and movie making.  Like this blog, creating something is therapeutic.  A blurry vision in my head is now a tangible vision sitting in my computer.  I thought, I created, I have something to show for it.  I don’t care what you think, that’s cool.      

Anyhow Paul and I have been making movies together since we first met.  We both worked at Blockbuster Video way back in the day.  Shorts, music videos, just messing around.  We just create.  I’ve always said I never shot anything for fame or glory.  I’ve always just wanted the acceptance of my peers.  If my friends think something is cool then I’ve succeeded.  I’ll have something new to show the world in a few weeks.  But if you’re looking for the next big thing, don’t hold your breath.

Thanks CNN…what would we do with out you?

I screen grabbed this off cnn.com

the day before a presidential election I do often wonder what the hell Chevy Chase is thinking about, and now I do.  Thanks CNN for putting this top news story into the forefront of our world.  Without you I would be lost.